for the past months now...i had to be tested among life living in a world without concern for pray or christianity...so ...what do u do ...while your soul wanna be challenged...go along the path of sin..feeling so uncomfortable...so dirty one moment...clean da next...well it's been a hard struggle...the case...a man...loving
caring..gentle as a lamb...in a garden...where life's temptations bath and clothed me
kept me feeling da effects of his body..mind and lustful ways...heading down the road to living right...giving myself to God..my precious life and adversory..where i dare not go wrong..i cry so much ...think my maker looks at my every hour...minute..second...he sees him in my head..wearing his bed...sleeping with..keeping him...caressing his charm...biting his flesh..as i think of sex..where
he's deep ..vocal lyricist...poems..drains my heart...i'm in love...god please help me..i had to escape..i saw where my soul was going..down...in the lion's den like Daniel..being fed 2 da lions...every breathe that sees his vapor..i come apart..my eyes drips wet..leaks all day..can't control my vanity..God Please forgive me...it's lust..for a man...i have no control of my aura..perception of him..like a magnet..our connection behind distance...through still waters...he still draws his
body..current..electrical force..takes me..where i want this man uncontrollably..
but all the time...while in 2 this wonderful...articulate seed..his spiritual aspects heeds da moment..writes what he more lest wants to do..to his flesh..his lust...his worldly possession..woman...for this...i had 2 make a decision..dissemble my heart...go in another direction..the moral to my life's dilemmas...messing with
my success in love for writing..EYES...are da windows 2 da soul...beauiful ..shining
so brightly..black...gorgious...staring at me...GOD..PLEASE...help me...i love him...the outcome...he doesn't..the choice has been made...i'll b alright..your my answer to pain becoming my end..begin again..DO WITHOUT..HE'S DOING IT..WITHOUT ME amen..Sheila T Jordan....Create.
